Ironically enough, after posting in early February about how we are settling well in Marathon, we found out shortly after that Mathew's contract will not be renewed come April. The church's budget simply cannot afford to keep us on for another year.
We are grieved in a sense that we feel our ministry here is not done. However, God has brought us to a place of peace and renewed hope and we are trusting in Him to move us forward. We have learned much in our first year of full time ministry and our church family here in Marathon have been amazing. They have been patient with us, trusting, encouraging, loving and basically our family away from family. We walk forward in faith and with a solid foundation - God can use even us!
So we spend our days in constant prayer, seeking God for direction. I personally spend a lot of time fighting a battle of emotions, daily surrendering my heart to God to guard against my flesh that sometimes can get the best of me. Maybe it's just the hormones that go along with pregnancy, or maybe it's just the shock of so much change coming at us once again, but my Mommy's heart aches for what this all means to my boys - once again having to enroll in a new school and make new friends. Thankfully they are sometimes much more resilient then we are as adults! I'm also heartbroken that we will say good-bye already to all of our new friends and the students that we have spent so much time with this year.
As I've started to pack our belongings, it is bringing along a lot of reflection over how God has changed us this year and how He has grown us. Change can be so difficult but it's also exciting. I can't wait to see where God is going to lead us next and what kind of ministry opportunities await our family. I'm happy that through this time of waiting we can teach our boys how to trust God and have faith that He has not left us alone. And in the moments of doubt or self pity, we can count our many blessings and lean on a God who does not change. He will make a way.
The week after we were given this news, and the shock had worn off, it hit us really hard. Our focus and energy seemed gone, it took everything just to act "normal" and live life in general. All the decisions we realized we were facing stared back at us and seemed impossible. It was rough. I had my 19 week ultrasound booked in the middle of the week, and it couldn't have come at a better time. We found out that we are having a baby girl! What a merciful gift from God - to take our focus off of the crazy part of our lives and place it on this tremendous blessing that will come in the middle of another year of change. It is so hard for me to wait for the birth of our beautiful good news baby girl!
We are thankful for the MANY prayers that are lifting up our family at this time. Please also pray for our church in Marathon, Pastor Adam, and the changes that they will go through as well once Mathew is done. This is his last official week on staff and the separation in the weeks ahead will be difficult.
I titled this blog entry, God is Faithful, because I believe with all my heart that we are living proof, time and time again, that this is the kind of God we serve!
"Because of the Lord's great love, we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness."